purehell's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- survival mode Life is so complicated. I need to figure out how to get better. I cannot live like this or it will kill me. I think i understand people like boris now. It probably is easier to just pretend the pain isnt there. Maybe it will go away if ignore it? Maybe i need to push it so far back that i cant remember it or feel it, or anything anymore. Maybe that is the only way to survive in this world of confusion and heartache. I do understand how this all happened. I think that is a lesson i can say i learned from this hell. Unfortunatly, im learning the hard way. My double whammy of heartache coming at me from both angles. I feel like a frayed rope in a tug of war game. Im slowly coming apart and have no idea how to save myself from finally breaking. Perhaps i need to go into survival mode. I'll lock the whole world out of my heart and then it will be safe from any pain. 11:16 a.m. - March 11, 2007 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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