purehell's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Revenge Not Needed Last Friday night i went to a friends house to make some stamping projects. Normally this is an event that shauna hosts, but she has requested that some of her demonstraters branch out on their own, so they have. Kiley and Kandice now host these evenings and im fortunate enough to attend because shauna does not. Anyway, its always a bit uncomfortable for me because half the room knows shauna and occassionally her name is mentioned. I usually just stiffen up and keep my own nasty thoughts to myself and continue on with whatever project i happen to be working on. This past Friday though we began discussing a shower in honor of a mutual friend and attendee of this stamping night who have recently adopted 2 children. They are very excited and naturally she will be needing things for the kids before they are placed in her home. This woman, Dana, asked me if i wanted to see the pictures of the children. She took me into Kileys bedroom to show me on the computer. While in there she asked if i would go to the shower. I told her that i wasnt sure, but that i would definitely like to participate in the gift giving. Then she asked "why arent you and shauna friends?" ....What am i suppose to do??? Make up a story ?? For who?? Shauna's benefit? Mike's benefit? ...why the hell do i give a damn when for almost 2 years they didnt give a damn about me or my feelings???? Dana's mouth dropped. I didnt mean to shock her, but really....what am i suppose to say? Once mike comes home and people begin to realize that we arent together, surely they are going to start asking why we're split anyway. What difference does it make. It doesnt matter anyway, she'll deny it. She posted another scripture quote on her myspace. I dont know why she thinks she's being persecuted, hell, she hasnt even taken accountability for her wrong doings. I certainly dont persecute her, i pity her. I wonder if she has read all of the book of Romans? Romans 13:9-10 Shauna can spit bible quotes out all she wants to. It is not for me to judge her. I just dont think God can forgive her of something she truly isnt sorry for, which is exactly why i havent forgiven her. She isnt sorry and she doesnt even acknowledge any wrong doing. As far as she is concerned, "sharyn has just lost herself" ....yeah, im making it all up. She's so sick. Obviously Mike is at least sorry. I can forgive him because he has come to me and confessed his wrong doings and told me everything as a way of repenting. I realize he didnt have to do that. God will forgive him too and knows that he is truly sorry. There's a big difference between asking God to forgive you, and asking God to forgive you because you truly are sincerely sorry. She has shown no sorrow, in fact she has only been hateful. A 5 page letter of hate, judgement, and cruelty to the wife of her married lover. I will continue to pray for her. Romans 12:17-19
I like to sleep at night. I dont know how she does. 1:29 p.m. - May 22, 2007 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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