purehell's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Calling Card Ok, i wasnt completely honest in yesterday's entry. Something IS bothering me. I didnt want to write about it because i dont want anyone to convince me that he is cheating still. Im trying to be fair to him in case i just have a case of paranoia, or perhaps someone might suggest im in denial...AGAIN. Either way, im not ready to face that idea. I found a calling card in Mike's wallet.
Well, i'd like to think not but i only have previous deception to go by. I just dont know what to think anymore.
I was not a very good detective. When?
Im trying, i swear to God i am. A friend told me to leave it to God. Give this up to Him. He promised me that God will reveal the truth. ...and then i find the calling card. What am i suppose to think??
Mike did just get a new phone number (i had it changed) and he has been getting a lot of "wrong number" calls....so it could be innocent. But here's the thing. I dont trust him. I NEED to trust him again or this will never work. Lord, i give this all to you. Show me and reveal what i need to know so that i can heal from the pain and stop this suffering. If Mike is being honest now, please show me so that he too can be free from this and we can begin to rebuild our marriage and restore our hearts. I pray and seek your will and trust in you to guide me in the right direction. In Jesus name, Amen. 2:14 p.m. - October 11, 2007 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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